End up I choosed cancer module with BaBaChanWT!

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I think psy-cology too pack, so tcher hint-hint to choose oncology instead since I said I'm okay with both, anyway it's still under nursing ! It's just that I scare I cant cope with the stress, and the posting to cancer ward is either at SGH or NUH or KKH's children? Either one, it's definietly not gonna be near my house! & It will be rather tiring! :(

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Btw, I heard from one of the EN, she said she choose psy, but not really you'll end up in IMH, that means you may not have to work as the one you choose :X

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OMG. I can't wait for tomorrow and that's the last day of this week. Friday PH, im gonna enjoy enjoy enjoy my lungs out with hubby and co. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

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YES, im so stress for my skills, but i'm not gonna care anymore, all those fuck tup lazy bums keep spoilt my mood, and the fuck tup "guy" still put me with the lazy bum even I had told him not to, and he still say "change partner, that's only fair to you" End up still put me with her* nbcb!!"

I think I've more interest in brain. :)

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I'm happy everytime when this GohHubby is here..

Hubby, there's alot of thing I want to tell you, but I guess without a need to say, you would know :)

Things are getting better for us isn't it? Better than month of march nd april especially, the time when we always quarrel had became the past! I'm not gonna think about it anymore as our present is way better.. :) Baby, I love you as you worth so much for it :)

Well, be it so .. there's still something I wasnt happy about ..

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Flashing back, I hope all of them were fine and happy too. I do think about it sometimes, it still hurts alittle, but it will not affect me anymore ! 1.2.3.4 wasting alot of my time. But who to blame? Its still me :*) O-WELL... god bless you guys haappy :)

Back to CGHWARD next monday, ward 35 is the next medical posting im going, this time round I don't know if im able to concentrate again! It's very war-ing this year, in fact, maybe is becos I'm nt used to this new group mates. I want I want I want to buck up, but I've a habit to work things with mood, as today my mood is bad= bad to some ppl, as today my mood is good= good to some ppl. I HATE this realistic life sometimes, they like to see things blindly! Work unfairly! Grade-B I want you! :(

I hate my life seriouslly, at times, nothing really works well for me...

No matter how hard I try, I failed to pass my goals. I got a (D) for my surgical posting.

& I fuxking dont think that I worth this grade !!!

Th most irritating things is that "some people" whom work not so hard gets better pays off, UNFAIR! Becos she is smart as a nurse? Or smart as to get her skills all signed, but towards paitients she is fuxking irresponsible and teachers still tot she damm good?! I HATE IT!

Had been sobbing my lungs out since I know I got a D for this posting. & I think I'm going to have bipolar soon !

Teacher just say "becos I nvr tells him anything" . Tell tell tell, everything tell .. Cant they just see ! Doesnt mean people who SMILES are strong, and people that dont SMILES are weak okay. Theré's always reason why she doesn't SMILES!!!!

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FUCK, baby boy, I feel like seeing you now!!!

Date w hubby at his house, slept for few hours, we when to meet R, C, JH, WQ, GWEN, KQ...

Baby spend $100+ bucks today. & I felt heart pain for him :/

We also brought th health and luck braclet at KINKANG and costed him 85bucks. Hopefully it works well for our health and luck(s).

Anyway, morning shift tomorrow :(

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GOODBYE DUDES...

SIGH.......

EMOING... Realised I talk maciam no mood? Idk why, im so irritated now adays. Im having insomnia, excited to see xoxo tomorrow morning, I miss everything of his, I hate the gaps in my heart now ! Just like everything is for real. Leak leak leaking vavles! :(

Everything is smooth so far. Not much abnormal stuffs. IMH now are just for ppl that feel that they need to take a break in their life, it's just like a chalet with board, card, mahjong games.

Had fun playing with them and see them laughs :D

Aftermath, gonna get ready for wars! Wars for skills by 1 week! That's my min' target!

I can't wait to see you hubby, able to see you 1 day only this week(sunday) and not gonna see you at all next coming week ! Time always crash on us ! :(

Had tiffs with hubby that day, his so disagreed me in being a NURSE. Cos Í've to hold Ahpeks hands and clean their *Ahem* and stuffss like that.. & finally he is gonna accept the fact that he have to respect my carreer! Seriouslly, if every hubby is gonna disagree their wife to become a nurse aint all those paitients gonna die -.- !

Ugh whatever , I'm going to ESO.

Even if I've you, I can't have 100% of you.

Even If I owned your heart, I can't own your mind.

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You can't think of me 24/7h.

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I can't expect much, I can't want you to be totally what I want !

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It's life fair? I think not at all.

Some studied hard end up not working as much as they should be.

Some dont study, but endup being a boss. So what if you've so much yet you don't have a healthy body ?! HAIIIx.

My mood is (bad) suddenly!

SHUT UP MSN .....

(1) You and yr hubby tgt when shopping at NTUC for things that we're gonna cook.

(2) He pays up( shows that he is able to do it)

(3) Cook for him and lock his gastric.

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Obviouslly I cooked something for him today, receipt :

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= chicken chop w mashed potatoes and pasta! :D

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BAD hubby only say:" you still got more to improve, cause my taste butt way too high standard!" but to be more specific is his very TIAO shi! :P

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(Came back home, now mood damm sucks dk why!)

(Nervous for tomorrow's IMH posting also!)

FUCK DAMM AFTERNOON!

1 more days, to 6th monthsary !

I soooo can't wait to meet hubbyGoh tml !

I think today another suay day. All of my friend had did insulin initial except for me! Why? Cause when I want do mine that time, insulin was cancelled. *eeeks. I can't poke pt*!

Btw, did simple dressing and STO today :D & there's this particular pt that many nurses dislike says "she love me and sayang me alot cause I'm very guai, I gave her what she wants everytime when she says. And tied her hair for her. hahaha! Naive lady.To them, you dont help me you're bad, you helped you're good, ."

WATCHING IPMAN2 TOMORROW.

Coming to rant tomorrow night :)

AS requested by HubbyGoh after reading my past.

From now on ....

I everyday or anytime when I post blog I've to post at least 1/4 of his stuffs like what I used to did in the past. Gradually ... things goes on and on like that in the past and I see no use of writing so much. Cos everything I wrote and wished didn't come true. & nothing 's"Forever" unless it's meant for you. . So from there on, I stop saying this word "Forever" ..

Hubby, you like to say I splash you cold water(translate to chinese). But it is not what you think my dear . Sometimes it 's just not what you want ... I can just when out today, and never come back, & I can just sleep tonight and never wake up... Who decide all this for you?

Ytd I also when back to read my ktkl-xoxo & ktkl-imy past. & many things came true my mind, why am I so stupid and silly in the past & now I'll never do it again even it's for someone x100 better! Nothing's fair, it is just that you've grown up from all the experiences be it sad, happy, hurting, loving etc ..

❤

Heyos,

Welcome me back on http://www.blogger.com/ @ http://www.ktkl-ihugxu.blogspot.com/ .

Current May day isn't too good. Not v bad, just not too good. Had been rushing my days in attachment and blink blink my eyes, a pathetic week passed again! Yes, Happy it's another weekend. Yet, sad it's another day lesser for my attachment skills to sign.

So...

Obviously I'm very stressed and tired. Waking at 5am can kill me! 6/5 hours of sleep is never enough for a youngster, :X

Today I admit that I've did a huge mistake. Pulling black long face to my lecturer. If I can't control my bloody stress and anger to myself by showing faces to others, how am I suppose to keep calm to some of my confuse and annoying pt?! Bad. This attitude must change TONGXKAI:)

Hmm..Let's talk abt the happy thing that is coming, 3 more days, @ 080510 is me and hubbyGoh 's 6th monthsary, no big deal for you but it's a damm big deal for me. Cos he's the second bf that had come so far w me and I believe oneday he will win the first :)

This SAT, I'm planning to go baby's house and cook for him and his fam." Western"!Why

I can't wait to see you, love
❤

S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D.


So I when to hubby 's ear and rant. Idk why I'm getting more and more dyspnea by all those pressure having within me. I aim for too much, till it's no longer my shoulders can carry.


Had lectured by hubby for being so soft hearted. He told me how to be evil (etc: prior my skills first) ! But that's not my style. What's with having all skills signed but not acting like what a nurse should be? Tchers always say "Prior pt", than they say" why prior pt till fail?" If fail, what's the point now?! Under so much stress, am I able to go to poly?! Seriously, if you ask me, I would choose to be a bookworm! Than a workworm! I hate facing living things(human)sometimes ! *TSK.


I want to get married ASAP.
I want to get older ASAP.
I w to get my own hard earn $ ASAP.
Get 1st LV's ASAP.
I w a good HEALTH!
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why?

1st :Planned to watch IpMan2, didnt expect and didnt rmb that it's 3th day of it's showing, so as definited, all time slot and seats sold out/ running fast + hard to get 7 seats in a row. SO.. Gonna watch it next week instead w usual clique(s)& darling.

2nd: Both me and darling having PMS for the day! But everything is fine now (: